Season of Weakness

I’m easily affected with sadness.

It gets inside me like a fluid.

It enters my soul without my permission.

And it even stayed for awhile

I’m not sure what’s the reason

but I know exactly what it meant

that as of now I’m powerless

motivated, determined but real as af powerless

my mind is so strong my heart is getting weak

my hopes and dreams stated unclearly

my path blurred with all the lies

I hear, I see and I feel

I’m mad with weakness for being here

I’m unsatisfied with fate

maybe because I don’t believe

in being independent with no one

powerful realizing I’m weak inside and out

pride or not

needless of words

Just look into my eyes

and take a wander to my eagerness

this weakness is no place

as big as my aspirations be

This season must end

This season must end.

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Bus ride: First 5 day

Yes, I’m on my 5th day going back and forth to General Santos City for my IELTS review. Bus ride will took approximately an hour journey from my home city, Koronadal. At first it never occured to me that I’ll be this flexible adjusting to land trips, five days a week, summing it up to 10 rides all in all. In other words, I’m beginning to feel a little bit of boredom just by thinking about it. 

All of a sudden, I’m starting to practice the art of “never mind”, sleep and just relax, this won’t take this daily grind of mine. Today is Friday 3rd of March year 2017. It’s a not just like any other day I may say, this day is congruent to the word “rush”. I’m not gonna deny it, every time I hear  the terms “Friday’ and “Monday, the laziness inside me apparently kicks in.

Putting up alarm clocks on mobile phones, tabs and even human body clocks. Well they doesn’t work with me every time, the best discovery therein is the “snooze tool”, very manageable. *giggles Grateful for this helpful invention. Supposedly it will just be a back up feature whenever your desired time is a fail. Always.

I cannot elaborate enough but I’m well aware and used to it. In case you (readers) don’t know I’m a graduate of Medical Laboratory Science, a Scientist, working as a Medical technologist. I am constantly experiencing habitual things because of my chosen career, just to keep up with my laziness to wake up for classes and work. These things are never new to me. What makes me blog is the unfamiliarity of the unknown. This makes me had a Go-Go! attitude in life. This is what keeps me running and walking. The road to the future. The journey to my American Dream.

 

Victoria